Bigger Writing

Last week, something nice happened. I was invited to submit articles to The War Cry, the Salvation Army newspaper here in the Philippines! Yey!

I’ve been meaning to submit an article before but I was not really sure how or when or what to submit. This idea came up when one churchmate and fellow blogger, Joy, suggested that I submit writings to the newspaper.

But now that it is officially here, that I have been invited and all, that I already know what to write about, that I already know when and where to submit them, it seems like I have lost all courage to submit. It feels like insecurities are starting to creep in.

I’ve never had any serious experience in writing. The only extensive writing I am engage to is blogging, that’s all.

I am stuck in thinking what to write and how I should write them. I need to come up with an article within the week for it to be included in the next issue. Aargh! I’m not even sure if I’m making sense in here. Lol!

Maybe I should start writing an article now, instead of whining. Please keep in your prayers.

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Miserable

I did a very terrible thing today. I lost my temper to a group of children during our class at church. I got angry to them when I am supposed to be teaching them about the day’s lesson. It doesn’t feel right but I don’t know what else to do.

I’ve been struggling with this for a long time now and I’m starting to lose heart.

I love children and I feel privileged to teach them. But I don’t think I have the capabilities to be their teacher. I just don’t know where to draw the line. I’m trying to befriend them, be a big brother or a buddy to them, so they won’t feel awkward when I am around. But then they seem to lose the respect they should give me during our classes. I can’t get them to take notes, I can’t make them answer when I ask them questions. They don’t do their assignments and they don’t seem eager to attend my class. I’m not even sure if they are learning anything from me. *sigh*

I feel so useless and ineffective in a task that was given to me. I don’t want to be a miserable teacher but I feel bad when I get angry at them. *sigh*